sociopathy 101
cw: human trafficking, c/sa
the Real psych problem I have is that I am a sociopath (extremely neutral) which just means that any trust in sanctuary or protection by any aspect of a "society" has fundamentally been smashed to itty bitty pieces the powder of it glitters like fairy dust bc the trauma is so severe, extensive, lifelong, and continuous I now possess an extremely deep pathological aversion to "society" and the normative concept of "morality"
i Especially disdain and despise the concept of "Good" vs. evil
but to such an extreme that it is no longer some kind of inapplicable thought project like teehee my grey morality oc
like no... i am... indeed the grey morality
I have a weird stance on morality where I do Not believe in "good" but I Definitely believe in "evil" and I also believe in "sacred" but also that, as my inviolet games are designed around, "nothing is inviolate, nor is it sacrosanct / though nothing is inviolate, (I know) there is still sacred left"
this means there is nothing that cannot Become a violence, even things that people think are "inviolable" like "basic human rights" (laughs)
just talk to literally anyone who has been systemically dehumanized on sight ad infinitum and then imagine what if this person did not ever, in fact, come to believe in their own humanity
because it has been so severely denied
and then develops a pathological aversion to "human society" which has Failed them in every single conceivable way starting with "not protecting children"
(being trafficked into child porn at the tender age of 4 will do that to you. that was Human Sex Trafficking 1: there is also the sequel. do not stay tuned just leave now)